A emo birthday

Well, here i am to blog after so long. Reason for not blogging? Simple. Whenever i blog here, it will be something personal, something that comes from the deepest of my heart. And whenever i blog, it will be of something emoish. So bear with me guys while i lash out at the world for being so unfair at me.

I have deliberately changed the posting date so that i am blogging it on my birthday which was yesterday, the 4th of Jan. I didn't have the chance, nor have the strenght to blog about it that day which was yesterday because i had night classes. I have and like the day i was born. Why? Because i like it when i am older then everyone in my year group which is 1989 and the only person i know whoese birthday falls earlier then me was a classmate in my secondary school on the 1st of Jan but then the year he was born was 1990 but he was considered in our year group because of some reason or so.

The reason i hate it? Simple, coz it falls on all god dam school reopening date when i was in primary school, or for some reason fall one day after i get back to school in secondary school, so noboby really remember or too busy with starting the new school year. Now when i was i poly, school starts fairly early on the 2nd. Which means 2 days after the 2nd and its a friday which means everyone can relax, IT FALLS ON A GOD DAM NIGHT CLASS DAY!!!!! Which means on my birthday, unlike all the other people who have fun on their birthday, I SLOGGED MY GOD DAM GUTS OUT in school till late at night till 930pm or 2130 hours. Oh yeah atleast it isn't that bad enough, a guy i looked up to most when i was a kid and liked him had to die on that day. Yay~~! It can't get any worst. YOUR WRONG!!!

Except for those few buddies which we never talk about our birthday or congratulate each other or wish each other ( don't ask, we just don't. Thats men for you ego dam big 1 :P) , but we know that and acknowledge in our heart that day was his birthday by going out and having fun which we postphone it to next sat, or those who don't know it was my birthday. But what was most saddening about this part was, the people i care and wish to have the congratulation from didn't wish me ( No its not my parents, they did wish me too). Maybe they are too busy with their work that they forgot, i am not sure. I should be angry about it but i am afraid that they will get angry at me back for not understanding. Well thats me for you, worrying about how others feel before myself. Sometimes i just wanna let go and go crazy and blame everyone but myself for the wrong doing. Sometimes i wanna burst out and scold that person and tell him/her how i really feel. But i won't, because i believe that once i finish, everyone will be miserable and i won't want that, i will be miserable alone.

Oh well, on a brighter side of note, Aisyatus my polymate, sang me 3 times "Happy Birthday" thou it was like attending a funeral coz she sang it so low and slow. And also the "few" sms i received to wish me and also a early by one day wishing from a girl whom i met in IRC a long time ago who happens to be my god sister and who happens to be in the same school and who happens i know her little sister too and who happens to be 18 20 days from 4th Jan or was it 3th Jan :P .

Told you guys it will be an emo post. I guess this would be emoing for other stuff that i have bottled up in me for weeks and weeks and weeks which is converted to this emo post.

PS* THose who knew my birthday but didn't wish me, it isn't directed at you guys intentionally, it just that emo so long must find something to release it all on and just nice this one made me the most emoist......... Not too late to wish me thou ^_^. I accept late wishes too, thou you wanna pay by nets or master?

PSS* Those buddies i talk about are those coming to bbq next saturady and some whom i tol that they can't come coz two different clique of ppl . one from sec school one from poly very hard to mix one... No matter how friendly you guys are reichy.^_^ Y

EMO OUT!!~~