A dream

Well i don't really know how to start this post.But well....umm......maybe its the stress but just yesterday,i had a dream.A dream that up till now i still remember it vividly.

I was sleeping and i dreamt of her again.Well this has been the second time i dreamt of her....but i didn't blog about it before.This girl hmmmm you may all be wondering......well...its a girl i have once love and hate.Ah well i dreamt that we were walking around nyp hand in hand or somewhere that didnt existed in singapore i guess.It had half of NYP and half of some places that my mind had make up.Well in that dream i felt so happy so carefree.

I guess its because i have been to stress to hallucinate about such things.I really didnt want to wake up although i knew that it was a dream......

Penning this down incase i forget about this incident....Ah well....its after all a dream and i shouldn't brood over it.That dream would be impossible anyway.

(Ps*To those who know who she is.....well umm....nothing~~~ lol)

Opening up your eyes

Well i guess i do have a little time to blog today,so i will b just blogging about today.Hmmmm or was it yesterday its 12.35am now that i am blogging but i am blogging about friday hmmmm.........OH well i am blogging about friday.

Got up quite early today and found out something shocking,i sent 6 sms to my friend in austrilia and what was more amazing was that all 6 was blank!!!!!Oh man this month's phone bill is gonna sky rocket.Ah well whats done is done so i guess there is no chance of retriving anything.

Met Joseph at hougang mall since he wanted to play the arcade.I had actually wanted to meet him at 1.30pm but then i dilly dally so met him at 2pm xD.Anyway.........we played daytona and this little boy came and sit down beside us to play.Guess the ending was clear.....I LOST!!!!Crap sia man was so pissed i played again.And i lost and played and lost well gave up after the 3rd try.Maybe not on form today or too many thing bothered me.

Well went to my friend house to do project and played with the two cute doggies there.Anyway left at 6pm to go back school for my astro voting for comittee members.Ah well we didnt really know all the people there yet so yeah we anyhow put the numbers in.Well i guess the president will be that guy/girl.I forgot who i put the name but....me and my friend put the same person so no matter how that person would have 2 votes atlest coz many people had also anyhow.

Well finished the voting watch a video on the Nebula exploding making up the planets and had dinner with my friend at a food court at A* in ang mo kio.Went up to jubilee to play daytona again.The first match,at first i thought there were only 2 of us and during the first corner i got slam into the wall by a red car.I was so curious that computer had actually known such a trick until i saw that it was a little boy i had lost to.Being the piss off guy because he kept slamming us into wall i played again and this time got slam again.So pissed i play the second time and well lose and lost so i quited admitting i lost.Well after that unhappy day at jubilee,i went back home.While waiting for bus,i saw two gays hugging each other.Doubt its Colin and Kiro anyway.......wanted to take photo of them but unable so could not help it.

Got home and now i am resting,well tomorrow i am going down to tampines to get the Bleach Heat 3 game ^_^ sounds like a nice game man

Tiring and busy week

Ok this would be my only post for this week as i am too busy for this whole week.Well so depressed my C# got a C man,i am gonna asked from ayusni how was i able to get such a grade when i obviously only like do wrong 1 5 marks qns out of the whole 30 marks.

Ah well,i am having a desgin and multimedia test tomorrow and i had my buisness information system test today which i gurrantee that i would fail it or atlest get like another C.Oh yeah my JavaTest has been pushed back which could be a blessing or a bane depending on my current project status and also how much i willing to give up for each side.

Anyway i am finally able to feel how a mental patient feels like.No you got me wrong i have not gone crazy(or have I?)But i just finally understood how a mental patient would feel.It seems that normally mental patients would think that they were someone famous or someone powerful and stuff.They also see thing differently from us.This is how it goes......

Yesterday night,after telling myself its enough i will wake up at 5am to study for my test today,while i was sleeping,i dreamt i was at this place like my room,then i was about to change my clothes when i found out that i was at the Padang.....or was i always at the padang in the first place in my dream.Then many buses was going by,then all of sudden,i was in clothes again.It seems that my brain was so powerful enough to replicate the whole background of Padang and what was wierd was i didnt feel that suddenly having all my clothing back on was something impossible.But then some part of me told me that this was a dream.So i told myself,just find any passerby that pass by me to wack or hit them.I can swear what happen next was true.It felt so real hitting that person and his reaction was so.........on the spot.

So i conclude that actually mental patients are actually being lock up by their own brain.Also their brain make them believe what they see and do.It also makes them think that they are something that they arean't.Anyway it hasen't happen to me once but it has been a long time.Anyway gotta stop here,still have stupied test tomorrow too

Tiring Day

Ok this would be my post for today before I drop into a slumber for 7 hours and wake up at 8pm xD.

14th July 2006

I woke up at 7.54 am thinking that I had to meet my project group friends at 9.00am.I quickly bath and was thinking to myself that I would be late down only to realize they had actually said 9.30am and not 9.00am.SO instead of being late,I was the earliest I was early,I wanted to check if my other classmates were in the library since they were doing their project too one of my friends handphone and it rang for quite sometime all of sudden a girl answered the phone,and it said this

"Hello?Hello?Oh hiieeeeeeeeeeeeeee"

When I heard hello hello I kept talking already asking if they were at the library yet only to realize that I was talking to a dam farking voicemail message pissed I called my other friend and check with her.

Anyway took out my laptop and plugged it into the power socket to do my VBA homework and tried doing it while waiting for them I could not do,I gave it up when my project group mates came thing is for sure,my projects would be a complete disaster as we left it only at the end to do it we have not rehearse for our Monday presentation around 1.20pm,me and my friend went down to the club room to go for our NIE Astronomy trip there and found out that......2.30 they would set off we went back to the library to slack abit.Around ,when we came back everyone was gone for us,one of our senior was still there and he brought us to the gathering point load the stuff up to the bus and set off for NIE.

When we reached NIE,we quickly take out the stuff and put it at our designated place.
(Sidenote:I just fell asleep at 2pm and this screen was glaring at me until 6pm when I woke up xD)
Anyway after setting our stuff down,we went around to explore the place is one heck of a big place,and it was so hard for me to find a toliet.And also if you are going there,forget about notes,coin is all you need are no shops around so drink is like from venting machine.

After all the exploring,we had our dinner went to the sports hall and boy was the queue so long had to practically wait for 10 minutes before being able to go take food the food was also greatly depleted by the time I reach the food think there was Veal meat but I think gutton people had taken it all by the time I got there.There was also Chocolate Fondue~~But I did not get to eat it.And I also salute this guy I think from Raffles Secondary.He was holding onto slices of bread.And trying to clean what was left of the foundtain of chocolate.I was kidding and called my friend then saltue towards him and he saw it and quickly stop it.

Well night came and we saw so many stars man.There was the usual and also to my amazement the head of sorcopion which was a orange star was so amaze by it had foreigners coming over looking at our equipment after the event was over,we voted to go to the hall to rest didn't sleep the whole night and played dota with my friends didn't sleep the whole night and drank 3 cups of coffee 7.30am the next morning which is today,we carried the equipment down the bus had not come,I took the opp to sleep on the ground for awhile the bus finally came,we all started getting ready the bus stopped next to us,he open the door heard we were going to load the equipment up onto the bus,he quickly close the bus door and said he wasn't going to take us was dam pissed,he even had the audacity to give a stupid reason that should not last minute then called him when we had obviously booked it at a week ago everyone was so moody and pissed off and friend went to the other side of the parking lot and stood there when the stupid security guard scolded us he was doing his job,it was alright but when another group of older adult was standing there,the security guard did nothing I am guessing he only bullies student like us.

Got back to school,and went to meet some of my friends for project before getting home ate my lunch and slept until 6pm.

A fun day

Hmmm....where do i start from?

Ok here goes.I met up with Reichmann,wei qiang and yilong at compasspoint.After meeting up with them,we went down to marina bay.As we were early,we went to the nearby arcade to have some fun.

After having enough of fun,we went to book seats.Oh yeah before i forget,the arcade at marina bay is very "Cheap".It cost 1.50 cents for a can of coke.It cost 1.50 for a game of Time Crisis 2.It cost 2 dollars for an hour at the lan shop behind the arcade was a rip off.The mouse was dim witted.I can click the mouse and 2 sec later would it respond.

We sat down at a bigger table and then came this boss.He told us he would not open the table if there were not 10 people.Then we said that we had 10 people,but he said that there must be 10 people present to really open it.Then i asked the uncle if we could wait for our friends then open.Then he replied how long?10 mins?15 mins?20 mins?I was so fucking pissed at his attitude.It dosen't mean that you own such a big stall means you could have such attitude.We could always go to the other side,its not as if you are the only seafood steamboat there!!!

Anyway as the others were late,we sat at a 5 seat table and started first.After we had finish,we went to have a walk at marina bay seaside.

After that we went home.

Well i have so exciting news.As i am insipred by Mr Brown podcast,me and my friend have been thinking of doing some mini podcast series.Well look forward to it then............Hope i can do it in time xD

A day i will never forget

Well as my title has suggested.Today 7th July 2006 would be a day that i will never forget in my life.I would be telling my grandsons 50 years down the road how ah gong had missed the chance to see a "Star" and saw a Star.

Its really no big deal my friend told me.You have many chances they said.But!!!!this was the first time i was about to see a star up close and the chance was dangling right infront of me.You know how everytime when something good was about to happen to you?And then all of sudden it was taken away from you so aruptly?Yeah that was the feeling.

Well it all happen on this fated 7th July 2006.I met up with one of my friend to go back to school to do our homework(Actually.......we had to passed up on that day xD).Anyway after doing finish it,my another friend met me at the auditorium where Fan Wei Qi aka Fan Fan would be performing there.We were going to see her concert.Well the ticket stated that it would start at 5.30pm but then we saw a long queuee and people were not moving in yet.

We had a Astronomy meeting at 6pm so me and that friend who went to do our homework decided to watch for like one hour before leaving.But then after very intense calculation.By me going to the toliet and standing and thinking,we decided to go off instead of watching the concert.So we gave our tickets to some unknown strangers in our school.And that was how i missed seeing a "Star".Then we slowly walked down for our astronomy meeting.They had already set up setescope or something for us to see to try and used it.When night came,the adventure begin.First we saw the moon.It was so clear that you could see the pocket marks on the moon cause by falled meteor on the moon.Then at around 7pm,we saw jupiter up close.Then we saw the jewel box.

Jupiter was so nice.You could see the belt around it and stars surround it.Then was the jewel box,there were so many stars that were changing from red to blue to green many colours.We took some photo up close with our handphone.Will upload it later.

Anyway i am now dam tired.I will always remember this day.Will be adding a post tomorrow about something that i always had in my mind.

Oh yeah btw tagboard is down,my skin is in the progress so please bear with this current skin.You could comment thou its not hard.You can put annoymous but atlest let me know your name.

Sad~~!!

Well i knew that it would be coming.I had hope that it would not happen.But it has.One of my classmate has chosen the path of dropping out of my course.The reasons are unclear.It seems that i would have a hand in it......then i may not.Its always sad to lose a friend,even if it was barely 3 months.He started out to me as a calm and silent guy during orientation.During our first week together,we begin our friendship.We got to know about each other's good and bad points.

It was during the 3 or 4 week of my life in NYP that it happen.He had became irritating,many people could not stand him.Not because he did something bad.But it was because he could not understand the stuff teacher has asked him to do.First it was minor then gradually he kept asking and asking and hoped for us to give him the right and full answer.We didn't want to give him such answer so he kept asking and asking without trying to understand.

Then we gradually begin to ignore him.Whenever he asked us for helped,we would push the responsibility to each other.During one test,we were irritated by his groaning and sounds he make when he was unable to answer a question.Then came the project,one of us had to team up with him.It was left to one of my friend.The worked was assign to him and he didn't do it or was unable to do it.Then my friend that team up with him flared up and gave no work to him to do anymore.I too blame myself as i ignore him too.I would asked him to get lost.He gradually drifted away from us.When the next project work came,no one wanted to group with him.

I guess that was the last straw,and he had chosen the path to quit.

Then during a unexpected event,i got to know that he was very depress that we were ignoring him,depress that my friend had not gave him any work for his project and also depress that we had forsaken him.

I blame myself for not understanding him better,i blame myself for not trying to help him,i blame myself for not making an effort and most of all i blame myself for not offering to tutor him earlier.It was that week that i told myself ok i am gonna find him today and tell him that i am gonna help tutor him in his work.

But alas who could i blame now but myself.If i had just lend my hand or even tried to do it earlier,none of this may happen.We may be still happily together as a friend.He was a good friend to have...and i lost the chance to cherish it.I only hope that he gets better friends in his new enviroment and new school.I am totally ashame of myself.No matter what he had done,he didnt deserve it.

Maybe he really felt that he could no longer take it and didnt want to bother us.Maybe he felt that he was not suited for this course.Maybe he just felt that poly was not the live he wanted.Maybe i am just giving too much excuse for something i was wrong...Maybeeee.....

I wish you well if you are reading this blog entry.I wish you all the best in your new school.I wish that you won't get crappy friends like me.Most of all i wish that you would not be bother about such things

(This post may sound too soft but it is really how i feel.I am not gay thank you but this are really what i wanted to say)

Ok it has been week's since i last blog.I have decided to atlest blog once every week so that i can record some of my thoughts in this blog before it leaks out of my brain.Well the reason why i had not blog this few weeks would be because mainly i have been too busy with irc.Yes i have been irc for the last week months and i enjoyed my stay and chat there.Well and it is because of this that i did not do my project which led to me rushing it out during my 1st week of school reopening.But i like the presure as it makes me think harder.I guess i have to get an device to let me record my thoughts.

Well irc has been great as i get to chat with many people at one time and thats make me high xD.Just yesterday,i went to one of my irc friend birthday bbq at East Coast Park.Met them at amk mrt station and went down.I was very quiet during the whole journey as well it feels so different.Anyway when i reached,i saw one of my primary school friend.We had a chat and they went to eat.Rented a bike and they wanted to race to see who was first.Lol i was dam slow and i finally found the problem after i reach the ending point.My seat was dam freaking low.Lol anyway reach the bbq pit and still didnt know who was tose people.Although i have talk to them before in irc or has always been chatting,i don't seem to be able to open my mouth.The bbq was great and ther were alot of fun.It was a great bbq but then all of them drank finish the alcohol that i didnt get to drink 1 as i was maintaining the bbq pit.Thats all for today i guess